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Wednesday, May 7th, 2008
8:38 pm	ARG Ok, so seriously sick first off, and I just found out my sister, who was just home this weekend, has strep. Woot. Also, having serious skin issues, which irks me like crazy because I pride myself on having very good skin. It's some sort of rash, and it's driving me insane because it pretty much just popped up overnight. Still haven't heard from the camp, but I wasn't supposed to hear from them for another week or so anyway. Argg! Does anyone know if there is anyone else at the school with like, a weird skin rash? I know it's not zits, because for the most part I don't get them. Very annoying. Also, 23 days left XOXO Current Mood: sick Current Music: Believe
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Sunday, April 20th, 2008
12:20 pm	Wow awesome weekend Ok, so I went to Southern Va this weekend to do like, an extended job interview, which I did awesome at. I love all the people down there, and the horses are amazing. I'm so sore though, because I worked twelve hours yesterday. One might say, hmm twelve hours that's a little excessive but not too bad. Wrong. That's twelve hours of grooming, tacking, pulling (getting the horses from the field), carrying 50 pound hay bales, operating the bull barrel (basically pulling down on something with all your weight), helping little kids onto horses, feeding the horses, etc etc etc. All that in 85 degree weather. I loved it though, and really hope I get hired. Michelle, who is Richie's girlfriend (Richie is the manager/head wrangler of the ranch), told me that it was a really hectic day, and that it doesn't always happen like that. I should hope not, because we did 5 trail rides, a hayride, all while taking care of the horses and teaching lessons to the kids who weren't riding. Now on to the boys. OH MY GOD!!! I met the cutest wrangler ever. His name is Matt, and he is such the steriotypical cowboy, which is exactly my type. He's got dark wavy hair, and great eyes, a cowboys butt of course, he chews dip, and he's just.... fantastasexical. New word. When we went on the hay ride it was pouring down raining, and of course we all were soaked, so when we got down to the ranch house, he was like would you mind if I take my shirt off when we get inside, and in my head I was like "Not at all. I wouldn't mind at alllll". It was pretty hard getting down there, I got stuck in bumper to bumper traffic for 2 hours leaving Northern Va, and mapquest got me really lost, so a four hour trip ended up taking seven, but it was so worth it. Time to pass out now, more stories later. ( Yay really long ) Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Pain- Three days grace
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Thursday, April 17th, 2008
1:54 pm	Yay for random english quizzes that only take ten minutes.  So basically I'm hopefully going to be working at a ranch near Lynchburg this summer, for those of you who haven't heard. 350 acres and 28 horses, to be managed by four people. Holy crap. Not to mention I will pretty much be stuck down there all summer, because it is three hours away. But still, riding, nontheless getting paid to ride is pretty awesome, as long as I don't get stuck with a Tennasee walking horse. So that's where I'll be this weekend, which is actually kind of awesome and really last minute. So, more info later if I actually get the job.
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Monday, March 10th, 2008
11:58 pm	Meh ( Again, meh ) Current Mood: sick
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Wednesday, February 27th, 2008
9:20 pm	The district sleeps alone tonight after the bars turn out their lights Blehg. Sick again, but my whole family is sick now. It sucks so bad. I really, really hate silver days. Tomorrow is going to suck so bad. And I'm really mad that I missed today because we were doing really fun stuff in all of my classes. I want this week to be over so bad. It has literally been the second worst week in my life, and it's only second because of Tom's accident. Maybe the third week though, because of the overdose. I want to bitch, and I want to cry, but I have done enough of both of those things in the past few days. God, I'm so fucking emo. More to come Current Mood: sick Current Music: Jem- "24 hours"
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Sunday, February 24th, 2008
10:18 pm	All in all I guess it's for the better if you just can't feel a fucking thing, fall asleep and die Hmm... ...Sometimes life isn't too bad. I want that. I wanted you to know it was you that we were thinking of as we quietly died in the snow, a place we'll never leave, a place we never want to call home, a place we'll call our final resting place in pieces. Life is suckish. And I hate it when things don't go my way. Dead cats hang from poles, little dead are out in droves, I remember Halloween. ( Hmm ) Hmm... I took her hand and I gave her a twirl, and I lost my heart to a Galway girl I got new boots today, and my niece and nephew came by for an awkward visit. I also found out that this guy I was friends with when I was younger, who I had a crush on was hit by an uninsured driver. His girlfriend was killed, and he has a broken leg and a hematoma in his brain which he has to have surgery to get removed. He also goes to VA Tech, which is where the accident happened. For the love of God, why haven't they shut down that school yet? I swear to God, every other day it's something there. Also, in breaking news, my great-aunt is still dead. Which depresses me. Also, I saw a really good movie yesterday. I was gonna watch it because Jeffrey Dean Morgan is in it, and I lover him, but then I found out that it's also a Christian movie, and I was all...awesome. Omg, I had the best dream this weekend, speaking of cute guys. Except this one is real. And no, it wasn't a sex dream, just really fucking weird and funny. Why do my best dreams always get interrupted? Current Mood: distressed Current Music: "Starfuckers" Nine inch nails
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Friday, February 22nd, 2008
3:06 pm	Take this sinking boat and point it home, we've still got time Ok, so my Great Aunts funeral was today, and I didn't go on account of I don't like funerals very much. Problem is the funeral was at 11, and I still can't track down my mom. I want to go shopping, but I need her card. I know it sounds kind of selfish to want to go shopping when someone has died, but I really need something to get my mind off of that and all the other suckiness going on in my life right now. Like sean, who is severely agitating me. Also, newfound love for Jeffery Dean Morgan. More on that later. To the mall! Current Mood: blah Current Music: "play crack the sky"- Brand New
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Wednesday, February 13th, 2008
12:02 pm	As soon as I was born I started to decay So, welcome to the first annual edition of  Wow! Cool Story, Ice Storm! So I was sick this morning, and I figured since it was a two hour delay, whatever no point in going in for a few hours if I'm just gonna feel like crap, so I went back to bed. I woke up at like, 10ish? and was feeling better, so I decided to go in to school. Just as I was going to get in the shower, Kelly M calls and tells me that school is closed cause of a power outage. Random. Okay, so he's cute. And he's single. And... I'm frozen. Not gonna happen in this lifetime. Boo Current Mood: amused Current Music: Wish- Nine Inch Nails
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12:08 am	Haiku for the day Rain is frozen now If schools are not closed today Many car accidents Current Mood: annoyed
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Monday, February 11th, 2008
8:11 pm	Tell em that God's gonna cut you down  1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write it down. "To be evil, that would be their greatest goodness" 2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? Window 3: What is the last thing you watched on TV? The simpsons 4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is: 8:10 5: Now look at the clock; what is the actual time? 8:12 6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? "Closer"- Nine Inch Nails 7: When did you last step outside? What were you doing? This afternoon, letting the dog out 8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at? Facebook 9: What are you wearing? Pink plaid pjs, My chemical Romance Sweatshirt, headphones 10: Did you dream last night? Teehee. Yeahhh 11: When did you last laugh? Probably yesterday 12: What is on the walls of the room you are in? um, random photos from photography, posters, my rebel flag... lots of posters 13: Seen anything weird lately? Not really. 14: What do you think of this quiz? Eh 15: What is the last film you saw? ummmm... I don't know actually 16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? 500 acre ranch in rural Ireland, lots and lots of horses, and then turn part of it into an animal sanctuary so I could have a legitimate excuse to own tigers and panthers 17: Tell me something about you that I don't know. You don't know anything about me, do you? I want to be an oncologist 18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? I would make all forms of abortion illegal 19: Do you like to dance? Yes 20: George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years? Someone who is doing something that needed to be done, but not doing it the right way 21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Charlie 22: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? Murphy 23: Would you ever consider living abroad? I wish I had the money for that! Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: "Starfuckers Inc"- Nine Inch Nails
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8:00 pm	I just want something I can never have... So my sister came home from college because she was really sick, and now I'm really sick. It blows. Also, if I'm sick tomorrow I won't be able to vote. Even more blowage. And he's really cute, and I would do some naughty things to him if I could. eh Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Wish- Nine Inch Nails
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Saturday, February 9th, 2008
5:55 pm	Cause my bright is too slight to hold back all my dark Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face The kind you'd find on someone that could save If they don't put me away It’ll be a miracle Do you believe you're missing out? That everything good is happening somewhere else But with nobody in your bed The night is hard to get through And I will die all alone And when I arrive I won’t know anyone Well, Jesus Christ, I’m alone again So what did you do those three days you were dead? Because this problem's gonna last More than the weekend Well, Jesus Christ I’m not scared to die I’m a little bit scared of what comes after Do I get the gold chariot Do I float through the ceiling Do I divide and pull apart *****Cause my bright is to slight to hold back all my dark**** This ship went down in sight of land And at the gates does Thomas ask to see my hands? I know you'll come in the night like a thief But I’ve had some time alone to hone my lying technique I know you think that I’m someone you can trust But I’m scared I’ll get scared and I swear I’ll try to nail you back up (everyone now) So do you think that we could work out a sign So I’ll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try I know you'll come for the people like me But we all got wood and nails, Tortured and hating factory But, we all got wood and nails Your tortured and hating factory Yeah, we all got wood and nails Your tortured and hating factory Yeah, we all got wood and nails And we sleep inside of this machine Current Mood: bored Current Music: Jesus Christ-Brand New
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Saturday, January 26th, 2008
5:22 pm	Talk about awkward and uncomfortable... So I finally managed to wrangle my emotions in and focus them on one crush. Yeah, you heard right. One guy, that's all. Problem. He's dating one of my friends. Solution? Eh. Not really anything I can do about it. Oh well, back to my insane boy-crazyness I suppose. Boo. Omg, ran into Pan the Penguin last night. Sooo annoying. She apparently has nothing to do but sit outside the mall by herself smoking, because she has no friends. Also, she's supposedly a model now? Yeah, right. And I'm a democrat. I hate people. Current Mood: angry Current Music: Almost Lover- A Fine Frenzy
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Thursday, January 24th, 2008
12:59 am	~Hear Me as I Am~ 1 in the morning. Can't sleep... neeedddd sleep. Wow. So, random song lyrics then. Isn't too hard to figure out who I wrote this one about 1st Verse: I was calculating, cool and calm, had you in my palm, or at least thats what I thought. But you, you slowly started to drift away like when we say goodnight after our epic fights I thought I had you under control. I- am just manipulative and anxious, and if I only knew how to take a joke, then maybe it would be better, just maybe. You, you are the greatest... oh wait I'm not supposed to say that word Forget it, you're an asshole and maybe I find it just a little absurd that we're ending this because instead of a kiss all we get is a phone call Transition: Cool as the other side of the pillow that you're sleeping on you rest your head I come undone. These simple dreams of you and me, they are no more, Well I hope you wake up screaming from your sleep Chorus: Cause I've become the monster that is chasing you and I will likely tear you apart before this is through listen to that song from your youth the one that says the brits are gonna get you don't sleep alone tonight, but then she's by your side, you won't have to worry about that. 2nd verse: Rise from the bed in a cold sweat, but thats not me sleeping to your left she is a conquest only you claim so then why does she know your real name? It should be me instead your arm's around but while you pace the town I'll be sleeping sound in my bed it doesnt really make sense unless you know the story behind it. Maybe if I like you enough I'll tell you someday. Current Mood: awake
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Wednesday, January 23rd, 2008
11:09 am	Hell Week Sucks So, first update in a while, sitting in Basic Skills with nothing to do. Hell week officially sucks, but I only have two things I have to do, make up a test in Math and make up a lab in Anatomy then I'm home free. Um.... more later. Current Music: Sean talking
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Friday, December 28th, 2007
2:47 am	I'm not always the bad guy, but I dabble Mall with Riggs= me driving for my first time without a parent= almost getting in an accident cause of a stupid northern va driver who wasn't paying attention.  Drove all by myself, no parents, on 66 west. Ahh.  Bought a cute little nightmare before christmas key cover at hot topic.  Started to feel sick, so decided to go home.  Rash is back. Gross itchy rash all over my legs and chest and arms. The doctor said its probably a reaction to my medicine, but if I get it on my face again it'll ruin my break.  So, I like driving by myself. It's very quiet because they haven't installed the radio in my car yet, so it's kind of serene.  I'm waking up early...11ish... to dye my hair tomorrow, then probably heading out with people. Unless I still feel like crap, cause I'm not gonna go out when I'm sick, obviously. I still haven't made plans for new years, but whatever, I'll probably end up in New York.  "I love stealing, I love taking things". - Bender. I love futurama marathons.  Pink Hair dye wooot! Omg... I have my license. Hasn't set in fully yet.   Current Mood: excited Current Music: "Almost Lover"- A fine frenzy
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Tuesday, December 25th, 2007
6:00 pm	...Show soul, Kiss the stars with me, and dread the wait for stupid calls returning us to life... Gift list- New Radio for my car Drivers License Lots of clothes Pink shiny bubble bath Pink sapphire necklace new thermos from starbucks with snow men on it There's some other stuff too.  Still waiting on my laptop, but my parents say they dont want to buy it for me till I'm about to go to college, so that it's up to the colleges specifications.   Current Mood: sick Current Music: So I thought- Flyleaf
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Monday, November 5th, 2007
1:46 pm	1000 / 50,000 (0.2%) 1000 words into my Nano, it's the first year I've participated, but I think I could actually pull this off, even though I'm five days late. Oh Well. Here's a little taste of the story, I haven't edited it or even read it over yet, so be nice! ( First page or so of Memoirs of an Addict.  ) Current Mood: bored Current Music: Summer in the city- Regina Spektor
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Wednesday, October 17th, 2007
11:27 pm	So, basically, I'm moving to Alaska this summer. Or at least I want to. I don't know if its gonna be permanent or not, all I know is its freezing there year round, I can go snowboarding whenever I want, and a 5 bedroom house is 1000 dollars a month. Yay Barrow. I think I'm just going to officially give up living in Ireland, present money situation and cost of moving/ living there and plane tickets to visit family would be way too much. I think what I want to do is become a doctor, or a nurse, and move to a really small village in Alaska where they don't have a hospital. Because some of the towns there literally have 40 people in them, and I know there's alot of people up there who would not be able to drive 100 miles to get to a doctor. Plus, I mean, temperatures in the negatives? Sounds perfect for me. Also, aurora borealis, days that last for months, and nights that last longer than two months, hunting and fishing, and baby polar bears. I'm just saying. Plus, I could have a malamute that wouldn't be dying of heat exhaustion. I know I come up with alot of hair brained schemes about my future, but I think I'm actually serious about this one. I know, scary huh. Me, actually serious about a plan for my future. Maybe I'm growing up after all. Current Mood: chipper Current Music: "New Slang"- The Shins
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Tuesday, October 16th, 2007
12:58 pm	I hate guys right now. They don't make good friends, or even ok friends, and they're terrible in relationships. So basically I'm a memosexual (for anyone who watches the sarah silverman show). I know I said I like assholes, but I've already got to deal with one of them in my life, and I'm even getting sick of him... the guy I'm supposed to be in like with, or whatever. Don't get me wrong, I'm not turning into a feminazi. I have no intention of that, and you can't make me. It would just be nice to be really good friends with a guy, having a lot of stuff in common, and hey, if we decide to go out, who cares? But seriously, who am I kidding? Also, my dad is still really sick from the Chemo, and with my mom gone that means I'm under a million times more stress than usual. So, if you've been missing me at school lately, now you know why- my migraines are pretty much happening every day now, and they are soul crushingly painful. So, you know the drill, pray for me if you do. Also, having a stalker = so not fun. Especially since he's vastly unattractive. Also... CANDY MOUNTAIN CHARLIE! Current Mood: sick Current Music: Placebo- Running up that hill
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